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So I spent about 5 hours at the Y today.  Yeah, 5 hours.  I am ready to take a giant NAP now but thought I’d stop in and share my day with ya’ll.  I was told that Allen Smith from Biggest Loser season 8 would be at the local Y that I am a member of.   I totally rooted for the guy. We are in the same state and he is just two cities over from me. So yeah, big fan!So, the flyer says he will be there at 9. I get there at 8:30. The girl at the front desk says, “Oh he won’t be here til 11.” Me- Umm, ok. I guess I misread the flyer. So I walk away feeling let down and thinking to myself that there is noway I am hanging out here til then.  I decide to do my workout.  I do my thing and while I am doing some lower leg weights,  Who do I see walk by the window on the outside track?  Yep, Allen AKA biggest loser guy.  Darn it, I missed the 5k with him!  Thanks, girl at the front desk. Grrr.  Our Y has really bad COMMUNICATION skills…not just on this either…on EVERYTHING.  Anyway, I am not bitter. I just finish my workout.  I actually do extra cardio and even more weights because I have time to kill.  What the heck, I am there already so why not?  

There was also a health fair there today too. So, I go to all the booths and then I go chat it up with Allen and his wife. Really, I spent most of the time talking to his wife.  They were so nice and encouraging.  They are great.  After that, we file into the gym and Allen gives….well, I wouldn’t call it a speech but he just talks about his experience with the biggest loser show, what lead him there, how he is now…..He, like me is a very emotional person so he cried a little, I cried a little, we all laughed a little. It was a great “talk”.  So, I knew he was going to do a group workout and being that I already missed the 5K with him, I was all for working out with him.  I was already tired from my earlier workout and felt shaky because the sandwiched that subway provided at the health fair were not actually sandwiches. They were, ummm…..Well more like a subway “sample”.  Three bites and they were gone! LOL  So, I was a little famished but I made it through.  Then, it was Yoga time with him.  No thanks, I am spent and I am going home. Two workouts in one day is quite enough for me. 

I did have some really great conversation with the two of them. Even took a few pics. All in all, it was a great day. He has motivated me even more.   Hope you all have a great weekend!

I will share mine if you share yours.  Your playlists of course!

Ok, I have so MANY songs on my mp3 player that I love to listen to while I workout.  I made a specific list called “workout”.  Here is what is on it so far:

Taio Cruz Ft. Ludacris- Break your heart

Ozzy Osbourne- I don’t wanna stop

Lil Mama Ft. T-Pain and Chris Brown- Shorty Get Loose

Timbaland- The way I are

(Step up soundtrack) Bob Sinclair-Everybody dance now remix

Usher Ft. Will.I.Am- OMG

Rihanna- Rude boy

Pitt Bull- I know you want me

Outkast- Rosa Parks

Outkast- BOB (Bombs over Baghdad)

Nelly, P.Diddy, & Murphy Lee- Shake ya tailfeather

Michael Franti & Spearheads- Shake it

Crazy Town- Butterfly ( techno remix)

Eminem- Lose yourself

Rihanna- Disturbia

Chris Brown- Forever

Lou Bega- Mambo #5

Danity Kane- Damaged

Red- Breathe into me

Timbaland- Morning after Dark

Jason Derulo- In my head

The biggest loser theme song

Paul Okenfold- Delerium-the silence

Timbaland Ft. Justin Timberlake- Carry out

Lady Gaga Ft. Beyonce- Telephone

ANY and ALL Breaking Benjamin (Fav is Breath)

Pink- Cuz I can

Kesha- your love is my drug (I can only tolerate it when I workout because I like the beat)

Usher Ft. Twista- Nice and slow remix

Usher- DJ got us fallin in love again

Taio Cruz- Dynamite

Enrique Inglesias Ft. Pit Bull- I like it

Ok, that is it for now.  I CANNOT workout without my music.  If you have any to share with me, I would love that! 

Now, let’s go dance! I mean workout.

Hey buddies.  I hope you are all doing well today.  I am great…feeling more and more motivated everyday.  I sure did miss this feeling.  I am just glad this feeling is back!  Every time I am having a moment of weakness, I keep telling myself that I don’t want to start over AGAIN. Nope, not gonna do it! Today is the day to get it right.  Funny how those words seem to be helping me. Before, I would say it and then I would tell myself to shut up!  Hah!

So, I am about to start week 4 of attending Zumba class. I LOVE it.  I never ever thought I would look forward to exercise.  Who knew?  While I have not really lost any weight in the past month, I have noticed that my arms are becoming more toned and so are my legs.  I am so happy about that.  All from Zumba class!  I mean, I have been doing Zumba three times a week and then going to the Y the other three days and doing only cardio. (Take Sundays off)  This week though, I have added weights back into my routine.  I am hoping this will give me the extra umph I need to get this weight moving again….well, that and I have tweaked my eating plan so hopefully I will get my stubborn scale to move down!

I am excited for this Saturday. Allen Smith from Biggest Loser will be at the Ymca. I think he is from season 8.  He is from my state (and two cities over) and I rooted for him on this show, of course.  We get to meet him, hear what he has to say, and workout with him. Really excited about this and it just so happens to fit my schedule that day. No Zumba in the morning

The instructors are in a wedding so class is cancelled. So, I will be at the Y working out with Allen. YAY!
Hope you all have an awesome day!

I have been trying to get back here and be a regular again.  To me, part of that is reading blogs and commenting when I feel I can add something.  Lately, I type a comment and it isn’t there. Anyone else having this issue?  I emailed Dr. Marc but no response.  Is there someone else to email? I have been outta the loop for awhile so I have no clue….

Anyway, this week has been good. Exercise and food are right on track.  They were last week too but I managed to GAIN a stinking pound. I know the deal, we fluctuate and the scale doesn’t always show us what we want or expect to see.  It is just so frustrating. Oh well, have to keep hanging on and moving forward.  It seems that the second time around this block is so much harder than the first time. At least for me it is.  The first time, I lost weight pretty quickly and stayed motivated. This time, it really is harder to do those things.  One day at a time….I will get there again. I am trying to learn the things I should this time around.  Learning not to starve myself and eat like a bird.  I have to learn to eat for life and now just for a few months. That is why I am doing this AGAIN.  I didn’t learn those things the last time.

Well, today was a good day and tomorrow will be too.

So tonight I went to my very first Zumba class. Wow, it kicked my butt!  It was fun but a good workout at the same time.  I was a little nervous to go because for a few weeks now, I have been trying hard to get a friend to go with me. I had alot of my girls tell me that they would go but when it came time to go, none of them where actually willing to go. So today I said eff it, I am going even if it means going alone…..alone to a place I have never been, doing an exercise I have never done with a bunch of people I have never met.  You know what, It was a blast and I can’t wait to go again!  I am kind of a shy person so this meant alot to me.  I was able to push past being scared, nervous, and shy. I am so happy I did that too. It may seem small to some, but for me this was a big step.  I am sort of a “homebody”.  It feels good to move past a fear that I have held onto for way too long. Go me!

Oh yeah, I got pulled over by a policeman on the way home too. Had a headlight out.  He was the nicest policeman ever.  He let me go with a warning which by the way, NEVER happens to me so I was happy about that as well.  He was even pretty HOT.  Haha, don’t tell the hubs I said that though. ;) 

Today has been a great day. I am doing well with my eating and once again ‘excited’ about working out.  Well, as excited as *I* can be about working out.

Today’s lesson - Don’t be afraid to do new things on your own! You just might enjoy it. 

*Cue the broken record*

Hey all. It has been a long time AGAIN.  I just wanted to write a quick post.  I have been here and left and come back so many times now that I can’t keep track. That is really important though. What IS important is that I am back and ready to give it another go round.  I am at an all time high.  I have gained back the 50+ pounds I lost and then some.  It has been a long time since I regained it and can’t seem to stay on track to lose it.  I will lose about 10-15 lbs, give up, and gain it back.

I want to try this again and would much appreciate any and all encourgement.  Today is day 2 of being back on plan. So far so good.  I must do this as much as it embarrasses me. My current weight is 197 lbs. Yikes!  I had gotten down to 138 and now I am right back to where I started about 3 1/2 years ago. Sheesh, that is hard to admit but I am glad I have. Now, the healing and losing can begin! 

Wow, it has been a long time since I have been here to blog. I quietly check in here now and then.  I see some things have changed alot with some buddies, some things stay the same and then you have me….Do I change alot or do I stay the same?  I guess maybe both would be accurate of me.  I wish I could say I was doing well and that I was back on the losing streak but I have struggled for so long.  I can’t seem to find the groove that I had when I first joined this site back in early ‘07.  I Keep trying and trying…..and TRYING.  Hey, at least I keep trying, right?  Well, it feels like a broken record every single day.  I will be on the treadmill busting my booty and all the while telling myself I am back and feeling great about it. By the end of the day, I am like….screw it. This is who you are and who you will always be.  Then tomorrow comes and it is the same thing all over again.  Why can’t I do this again?  Why after having lost 5o+ pounds and then gaining it all back can I not do it again??  It is so frustrating and I know alot of you understand what I am saying.

What am I not getting this time around?  Why can’t I put myself first and keep myself there?  Where is the “umph” I use to have?  I wish I knew.  I wish I had something that just clicked in my head.  I lost it and I need to find it again.  I know that one day I will. I just want that day to be now.  It seems as though when I lost the wait the first time, I didn’t let myself enjoy it.  I got to where I wanted to be and then started to get lazy and not working as hard as I did.  I lost the weight just to immediately gain it back.  I spent most of 2007 losing it, all of 2008 gaining it back and now tht 2009 is nearly over what do I have?  Nothing that has anything to do with weightloss.   I spent almost all of my 20’s being sad and hating myself.  I told myself that I was NOT going to do that in my 30’s but yet here I am. Sad, depressed, and hating myself yet again.  When do I learn from my mistakes?  When do I FINALLY say enough is enough and do this thing and do it right?  Well, it is a never ending learning process and one day I WILL get it. 

I didn’t write this blog to bring others down or even to feel sorry for myself.  I needed to put this down in front of my own eyes and perhaps to get it out of my head!  Today was not such a bad day for me. I worked out and didn’t do too bad on the eating.  Tomorrow will be even better.

I hate the title ” I’m back!”  So I won’t say that.  I have been “back” so many times and I end up leaving again. Nothing personal. It’s not you, it’s me.  I am a very emotional person and tend to wear those emotions on my sleeve. Sooo, I am “back” to give it another go. I have been struggling for some time now and I am sad to say that I am one of those that have gained the weight back.  I gained nearly every pound back that I had lost.  I have not gained the “and then some” back but as far I am concerned I may as well have. I feel like crap again, look like crap again….I am sad again.

I keep trying and I do well for a few weeks and then I just slide right off the wagon again.  I am here to try again. That is all I can do, right? Keep trying…I just want to see some progress again.